So close to the end of book 35…

So close to the end of book 35 and so afraid of what else is going to go wrong… the tension and suspense makes me want to flip to the last page and peek (which is NOT my habit). I want to know that the people I’ve come to so admire and adore are going to be all right but I can tell that this author is not going to sugar coat matters to discredit the story. I hope for a miracle but I think the book will be stronger if we have a hopeful but not happy ending. We’ll see very shortly.